What The Hell is Going On?
Ever since Riley got off the bus this afternoon I’ve been thinking what the hell is going on. He’s just been off for lack of a better way of putting it. Obsessed with a movie he wanted me to download to the point it triggered a meltdown where I was told I’m the worse mom in the world. And I’m fairly certain I heard the word dumbass when he was yelling from upstairs. So in other words a full force grade A autism meltdown. He’s been chewing on his cuticles and nails which means his anxiety is up, but no matter how hard I try I can’t figure out what is causing it. Then I looked in his backpack and see that he brought someone else sweatshirt home. Not a big deal. I told him to just tell his teacher and she would get it back to the owner. It freaked the poor kid out. I never could figure out what it was he thought I was saying. At one point he was blaming his Dad for something to do with it. I was only able to calm him down by telling him I would email the teacher and she would take care of it. He didn’t eat all of his dinner either. My boy doesn’t stop eating his krabby patties for anything.
So here I sit up since 3 am with a throbbing arm praying he goes to sleep soon. Wondering what the hell is going on. Is this the calm before a bad episode? Is he getting sick? Will it be days before I get an idea of what is going on so I can try to help him? It gets exhausting all of the worry. I would give my right arm (it doesn’t work right anyway) to be able to get inside his head for just a little while. To be able to help him to navigate it all. Piper gets upset or feels bad and she tells me what it is and I do what I can to help. Even when he tries and there are times he works so damn hard to tell me what’s going on, most of the time I can’t help because he can’t get a full explanation out. There should be some parental remote control where you can hit info and figure out what the hell is going on with your kid.
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