This is Spinal Tap
Nope, not the kick ass movie…but a real freaking spinal tap. Tomorrow my little boy will have a needle stuck in his spine. Something that we hoped to avoid but we’ve come to the point where we have to do it. I know that as far as medical procedures go there are many that are much worse. I know that he will be asleep and at one of the best pediatric hospitals in the country. I know that we have to try and figure out what is going on with him. But it doesn’t make it any easier.
His every day life has been so overwhelming lately that it just feels wrong to put him through this right now. Why this is getting inside my head so badly, I don’t know. If we knew what the hell was going on I feel these type of decisions would be easier. Give me an idea of what we are dealing with and testing, treatments, whatever else could be decided with a goal in mind. This lets try this test and see if it’s this or let’s try this medication and see if it helps, is just not easy to deal with. But at the same time he needs some peace and we need to know how best to help him get that. So we will let them do the spinal tap and pray for an answer. I just so want my boy to be able to turn it up to 11 again.
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